Promos are really close and I'm really scared. My parents told me that they didn't have to worry about me because they know I can PASS; it's just a matter of whether it's an A, B or even a U. But parents are parents; they want their children to ace whatever examinations that they have. Tell me, which parent want their child to sleep on the streets? Definitely none. I fear to disappoint them again, which I don't want too because they worked really, really hard for the family.

When I teared after receiving my O level result, my mum cried as well. I could tell that she was really damn happy for me. And though my dad didn't show, I could tell that he's proud of me. That's what I want. I really don't want my parents to be disappointed or whatsoever. I want to do well for my A levels, get into a university, get a good job and support them for the rest of their lives. I'm not those ungrateful brats who forgot their parents after earning millions.

But, I don't have the motivation to do so. Like everytime I try to study, there's always this invisible force forcing me to do otherwise. I know it sounds really bad, but I'm trying to put in whatever effort that I can for this 2 weeks. It's not like last year. Prelims made me realised there's A LOT of improvement to be made. Like who gets an L1R5 of 25 for Prelims when you should be damn prepared for the O levels already. Sure I did it, but what about now? So what if I got 6 points for O levels? My mum told me to look forward and not drone on the past. I have set goals for myself, but sadly I won't be seeing them come true.

Let's just leave it to the future eh.