I'm seriously feeling damn upset and disappointed now. Having said so much about wanting to take H3 Chemistry yada-yada, I end up not being able to take it. Super sad lah. Wanting to take H3 Chemistry is one of the main reason why I chose to come to a JC. Why can't they be more lenient in the marking? I knew I prepared for Promos despite how late it was. I guess I can only blame myself for it. I teared buckets just now on my way back home.

My mum told me to take the positive side of things. I will heed her advice and start revision early this year. I don't want to regret not scoring well for As. However disappointed or upset I may be, life still has to go on. Though now I don't have any motivation to do well for PW already.

Need someone to talk to badly.

Goodbye H3. I'll miss you forever.

Results were out just now. And the wait was enough to kill me already. In any case, I thought I did quite alright because I improved by a fair bit from JCTs. The only paper I am most satisfied about is Biology. Probably because its the paper than I studied for the most. I'm particularly pleased with the virus question. Chemistry is a little disappointment but I know I did my best. I will decide whether or not to post my results. Probably after the whole moderation.

Geez. Today and yesterday was supposed to be marking days for us. But the school made it compulsory to come to school to do PW only. And there was no attendance taking for both days. I mean, they should just make it voluntary lah. There will sure be groups that will come back to school to do PW. Anyway, there's Sports Exposure and Sports Carnival tomorrow and Friday. Results will only be released on Monday. And next week will be hardcore PW as well. Plus, the submission of the Written Report next week, I bet everyone must be cursing in their heads. Let's get this done and over with forever.

And I've been reading online about people not getting good results but still are offered H3 subjects. So I guess it's sort of like teachers' recommendations. Let's just hope my results would be good enough for me to take H3 Chemistry. I'm dying to take that subject lah.

Anyway, I learned that next Monday is the start of the O levels. How time flies. I can clearly remember sitting in the school hall screwing my first paper by mistaking propane for ethane. But yeah, it's all over. So, in case I don't get a chance to blog again, I'll like to wish all those taking the O levels good luck. Remember what your teachers have taught you and don't ever ever panic during the exams. Otherwise, your mind will suddenly blanked out. And remember your waterproof pens. And lots of it. You wouldn't want your work to get smudged by the rainwater when the papers are flown to Cambrige. Get spares for everything; pens, pencils etc. Change the batteries of your calculators if needed and if you can, bring extras. My friend brought 3 calculators into the exam hall last year. And yes, your entry proofs as well as your NRIC. After the papers, don't ponder too much because there will be moderations.

Just to let you know, miracles DO happen. But don't depend on it alone.

(:

Thank god today is a holiday. I really need to catch up on my sleep. Like seriously. My weekends were fully occupied, leaving me no time to rest. On Saturday, I went to my aunt's open house. She had this kenduri early in the morning because her whole family just shifted house. So, my father insisted we came early. Had quite some fun seeing all my cousins although I have seen them every week from the start of Hari Raya. We camped in my cousins' air-conditioned room almost the whole day because we were trying to avoid the crowd. The only time we went out was to eat, go to the toilet and pray. And the view from my cousins' room was really scary at night. Heh.

Then just now, went to the final open house for this year. We made so much noise at the playground while playing Poison Ball. Lame I know. But I had to take care of the small kids because apparently, I was the oldest around and I was bored upstairs. And they could only go to the playground if I went. Sheesh. Hari Raya went over so fast.

I love my cousins so very much ♥♥♥ God knows when I will see them again.

(:

Heh. My one and only Promotional Examination (hopefully) is finally over. Overall, all the papers were quite do-able with the exception of GP of course. It's either I was too careless or forgotten the theory. I know my Mathematics paper is spammed with tonnes of careless mistakes. But I was quite surprised that I could do the question on integration by parts/substitution. Anyway, it's all over. Let's just wait for the results, which will tell me whether or not I can take H3 Chemistry, which I REALLY REALLY want. If my results turn out to be horribly horrendous, I'd just have to accept it and work hard. Damn. That sounds so cliche. The A levels is what actually matters; I just have to learn from my mistakes and don't repeat them.

And I don't think I can ever slack even though Promos are over. There's still PW which we can finally concentrate solely on till next month. I've yet to submit my first draft of I&R, redo my script for OP and help touch up the slides. TJ 103 MUST get A for PW. EE for everything. There's also MCT, JCT, Prelims and A levels to study for. I made a promise to myself to study during the December holidays so that I won't end up cramming everything at the very last minute.

Back to Digimon Frontier.


We'll live by the lessons we learnt

Economics is finally over after so long. And I'm having mixed feelings about this paper. Because the essay was almost similar to what we went through in class. Except the demand and supply question on iPhone of course. The case study was much easier than JCT because I could understand the sources given. And I studied Inflation for nothing.

Gonna start on Chemistry soon. Organic Chemistry FTW (:

2 papers are over but I'll touch on that later. Yesterday, we had open house and sadly, the only date available for us was on yesterday. So when my family was busy preparing for the open house, I was in the room with my notes in front of me. I didn't know what to start with, so I figured I finished recapping through Photosynthesis and Respiration. And just when I was about to start on DNA and Genomics, people start strolling in. But I still continued to mug till O&C which I managed to complete like at 10PM. I really wondered why I could still study despite the unusually high noise level in the house.

Biology was okay. Mugging till late at night really pays off. I mean, the essay questions were like straight from the notes. The moment I saw sickle cell anaemia, I immediately did the question. I was just stuck at part b when the whole comparison didn't come up in my brain. And there was this damn question on mitosis in the structured questions. I was staring at the graph for a very long time before I decided to skip that question. I felt that the graph didn't show any evidence about mitosis at all. And I almost got hemagglutinin and neuraminidase mixed up. Thank god I didn't. And they even asked what is meant by gene mutation. My genetic diagram was horribly messed up and I apologise to whoever is marking that question. I can safely say my MCQ is a goner. I totally forgotten that the inside of the liposome is actually an aqueous environment and that introns are spliced out, so they don't affect the protein formed. Forget Biology. I'm hoping for a C.

GP was terrible. Just the comprehension part. I didn't understand what the passages actually meant, though it was in plain English. I won't expect much from the comprehension part. And my essay was the longest one that I ever written, in neat and beautiful handwriting. Hahas. I love my handwriting very much. Mrs Chen told me that the Cambridge examiners would love marking my papers.

Economics is tomorrow and I'm hoping the case study won't be on Inflation. Otherwise, I'm finished.

Heh.

I swear I wasn't this determined to do ace any examinations ever. I know it's just the Promos, but I would never, ever want to get retained. Wouldn't that be a year wasted? Sure I won't have to do PW all over again but I would rather get promoted to JC 2 and face the stress or whatever. Geez, sometimes I really want to go back to being a Secondary 4 student in TK. But I wouldn't want to face the Os again. For one, it's terribly scary to guess what our dear Cambridge will give us and two, it's definitely another thing to wait for the results. WAIT. Wouldn't I be going through it once more next year? Let's wait till the end of Promos before I can say anything.

I've set really high targets for myself this time round. I don't want my efforts to go to vain just like that. This time round I must get at least BBC/C and nothing less so that I can get my H3. I'm hoping Biology will be manageable and Chemistry will have lesser of the physical chemistry questions but more of the organic chemistry. Speaking of which, Mr Tan did return our mock exams on Wednesday and I though I did okay, considering the fact that I didn't have time to study for the paper. But the MCQ was really horribly.

And I really think Gas Law is stupid. I thought this was more of the Physics part rather than Chemistry. I'm hoping to finish the physical/inorganic Chemistry part soon. Then I'll start on either Economics or Biology. The organic part can wait till Monday or Tuesday.

Back to notes.

Today was okay I guess. Though I was feeling slightly tired and half of the time I was yawning away. But anyway, since it's just less than a week to Promos, the teachers are trying their best to drop hints, go through concepts etc. And who could ask for a better Chemistry teacher right 2109? Mr Tan is really trying his best to help us and he even went to the extent of setting mock exam for us to sit just now. He even told us he'll try to return us tomorrow. I mean, marking 25 scripts in one night? But unfortunately, I didn't found time to study because I thought I had better study Biology in case I couldn't complete everything. The paper was alright, and I could have done better if only I revised. Now I'm feeling guilty because I felt my answers were not good. I love the 12 mark question though. Organic Chemistry FTW (:

And during PW lecture just now, they gave us unwanted stress by telling us the schedule for the actual OP examination. Luckily I was sitting up in the upper gallery and couldn't see a thing. But my hands were sweating cause the lecturer made it sound really scary. I'm just going to leave it till Promos before I start worrying. And Biology lecture was super fun because one, Mrs Lam was showing us some really hilarious videos and two, while explaining how to answer comparison questions, she used Powerpuff Girls and Teletubbies as example. Really funny, but I'm not going to elaborate.

Yup, this time round I'll be the one screwing Promos upside down and NOT the other way round.

Back to Biology (:

It's nostalgia all over again. I clearly remember trying so hard to mug for the Os like as if it was just yesterday. This time round, I'm mugging really hard for Promos which I hope I can do well. The only difference is there is school the next day and as such, I can't study till late at night. Otherwise, the outcome would be undesirable; like how I wasn't concentrating during Mathematics just now. Till now, I'm almost done with Biology with just DNA and Genomics, O and C of eukaryotic/prokaryotic genome, which I'm going to leave it till later. Thank god for the study breaks on Thursday and Friday. Must continue mugging till next week. Only then I can get my BCCC.

Oh damn. I thought I would be free after Promos. But no, I suddenly remembered there's OP and I&R. I swear I'm going to get this done and over with, and goodbye PW forever. PW is the worst thing that could ever happen. GP isn't so bad as this. But let's take things in our stride and strive for the A for PW.

I happen to read some of the secondary 4's blog and yup, I'll take this opportunity to wish them all the best, though chances they will read this is very small. Mug all you want but take care of yourself. You wouldn't want to fall sick on the actual examinations right? I just realised that it's already October. In exactly a year's time, I would be mugging my ass off again. And it's just last year when I sat for a major examination.

Till then.

TGIF. But unfortunately, this means that Promos is very close. And I mean it; it's VERY close. It's just like slightly less than 10 days till the first paper and I'm panicking really badly. I swear I wasn't this worried last year. But I think preparations are going on quite well. I've completed 5 chapters of Biology already; genetics of viruses and bacteria, mutation and cancer, photosynthesis and cellular respiration, though I have a feeling I might have forgotten some info on photosynthesis and respiration. I'm going to complete the whole chunk on cells - structure and membrane, division, transport in and out by today. Then I'll move on to biological molecules and Mendelian genetics and lastly, DNA and genomics and organisation and control of eukaryotic/prokaryotic genome. I think it would be good to study O&C last since it's a big chapter and there's a lot of comparisons to study. Target - finish Biology by Tuesday. Then, Economics and Chemistry, with Mathematics in between. Hopefully things will turn out fine.

And I swear that some people in our class are really capable to take H3 Chemistry. I mean, they can think of the synthetic route like damn fast. I'm jealous. Heh. But heck, I must get at least BCCC to get H3 Chemistry.

Till then.